After 10 years

I'm always think about this, my mind always worried about this. what you will be after 10 years? how your life after 10 years? what you have done after 10years? all the result related with what you do now? or it different? what your mind say?

it's call dreaming?

when i'm thinking about this, i feel down sometimes, afraid about future, what will happen later...but half of my mind trying hard to positive the negative, hope you understand what is it.

next year is my final year here, still long2 away to go, after this i 'just' have an degree but i still have to study for my license this is the problem here, i'm feel stuck because of this. i don't know what i need to do now, finish this degree then working with something that not related with what i'm study now? or just continue on this area but slow like hell. I have lot of dream, and i need/must make it true, but i know sometime your dream never come true, but this is my vision.

i'm a bit slow if compare to other person, and i'm try to play safe. do you think it save enough? i don't think so, because i will become too slow, and now i think it happen, when i can built my on life?

study life compare with working life? which one you choose? i can say here, most of them who study will choose working life, and those who working will choose study life, every person have their on reason.

right now what mumbling and dreaming in my mind is to have own life, have own income, of cause i need best of the best number of salary, have own family. Then, lastly i will think about this, do i can archived all of this? :) hahaha....you know the answer, i think all of human here, thinking like what i'm think right now, then what you will do now? what your planing? sometime our feeling feel down so deep, then up again like a rocket but then, noting improve!